May 2017 film releases that I want to see

I’ve been checking out up and coming films for May, and even though it is a quiet month for films I fancy watching, here are my favourites ๐Ÿ™‚

The Levelling
UK release date: 12th May 2017

Synopsis: Somerset, October 2014. When Clover Catto (Ellie Kendrick) receives a call telling her that her younger brother Charlie (Joe Blakemore) is dead, she must return to her family farm and face the man she hasn’t spoken to in years: her father Aubrey (David Troughton). (via IMDb)
Stars: Ellie Kendrick, David Troughton, Jack Holden

Away
UK release date: 12th May 2017

Synopsis: A story set in the north English seaside town of Blackpool and centered on two kindred spirits who form an unlikely friendship. (via IMDb)
Stars: Juno Temple, Timothy Spall, Matt Ryan

Colossal
UK release date: 19th May 2017

Synopsis: Gloria is an out-of-work party girl forced to leave her life in NY and move back home. When reports surface that a giant creature is destroying Seoul, she gradually comes to the realization that she is somehow connected to this phenomenon. (via IMDb)
Stars: Anne Hathaway, Jason Sudeikis, Austin Stowell

Monday Motivation – 24th April 2017

I saw this quote online earlier and it really resonated with me. The past few years have been really hard for me, for lots of different reasons, and one thing people tend to say to me is that I always seem to find a positive out of negative situations. I guess I’ve always been like this.

When I worked in a shop when I was 19, a surly man I worked with hated my positive attitude and once snapped, “I bet you’d find something positive to say about a pile of shit!” I said, “You could put it on roses?” and he walked away. He didn’t challenge my positive attitude after that, he simply avoided talking to me if at all possible. I guess he was just happy being a negative person, and so he found it difficult to talk to me.

I think there are times when you can sink or swim; I think I’m one of life’s swimmers. I know that when life is hard, it’s so easy to just give in and let the despair wash over you like the tide on a beach. I wish I had some magic formula to give you in times of hardship, but I don’t. I guess you have to find whatever works for you ๐Ÿ™‚

Poem for 19th April – Poetry And The Creative Mind Day

On 19th April, it was Poetry And The Creative Mind Day (I know, I’m late!). I had all intentions of posting on the day, but I was ill and didn’t get the chance. A tiny poem came to me as I was thinking about putting together a post a couple of weeks ago, so here it is!

Time marches on.
You can march on alongside it or you can get left behind.
It won’t wait.
Stop or move, it’s down to you.

Now, I have no idea if it’s technically a poem, but I wanted to share it nonetheless!

Harry Styles on Saturday Night Live

Now, there aren’t many people I would stay up for until 4:30am on a Saturday night, but that’s exactly what I did last Saturday night (15th April 2017). Why was this? It was because Harry Styles was the musical guest on Saturday Night Live, and because of the time difference (it started at 11:30pm in New York), it started at 4:30am in the UK.

We had heard rumours that Harry was going to appear in some skits with the host, Jimmy Fallon, and that as well as singing his first solo single, Sign Of The Times, that he would be singing a second song from him upcoming album Harry Styles. So, as you can imagine, we were all very excited!

Not only did Harry sing Sign Of The Times and Ever Since New York, he also took part in two sketches: one where he hilariously impersonated Mick Jagger in a time traveller’s edition of Family Feud (where Jimmy Fallon played both a 1977 and a 2017 version of John Travolta!), but he was also in a sketch set in the Civil War.

The feedback from non-One Direction fans has been simply amazing; so many people basically saying “I don’t like One Direction but that Harry guy can sing!” I’m so pleased for him that people are taking off their One Direction-tinted glasses and seeing what we’ve seen for the past seven years; that Harry is a talented guy with a lot more to show.

On Friday it will be three months until the release of Dunkirk, so hopefully people will go to watch it with a different idea of Harry than before. He shouldn’t be disregarded simply because he is “in a boyband”, he should be judged for the talented man he is. I know I go on about One Direction, but I feel like a proud mum a lot of the time and it’s always lovely to have positive things to say about them ๐Ÿ™‚

I’ve included the videos of Harry on Saturday Night Live below, he was simply amazing.

Do you like to discover new music?

One of my side projects is Merryn Music where I interview unsigned UK and Ireland music artists every Monday for a feature I creatively called “Independent Music Monday”.

One of the other parts to Merryn Music is the Spotify account. Since Merryn Magazine launched in April 2016, I have been collating ‘new music’ playlists on the Spotify account. These are updated each week and I also have a playlist where I compile the 20 best songs of the week. These playlists feature UK and Ireland artists only.

There are now 300 songs (18 hours 30 minutes of music) on the February playlist:

There are over 300 songs on the March playlist:

I have added a new batch of songs to the Top 20 playlist, so if you fancy a listen, here’s the playlist! ๐Ÿ™‚ (NB: I can’t get Naropa’s song off the playlist! I think it’s because it was removed from Spotify, my playlist starts with Brave Giant).

Whose blog is it anyway?

When I first starting blogging back in 2012, I never thought I’d get any followers. Who’d be interested in my ramblings? I now have followers, and I am so grateful for every one of you. To be honest though, for a long time, I found myself not being able to blog on here because I felt so guilty that I didn’t have the time to read the posts of everyone who follows me. So I figured, if I don’t blog, then I won’t have to upset the people who would have known I’d been online but hadn’t read their posts. It probably doesn’t make any sense, but I didn’t want to offend anyone.

Now that I run the Merryn family of websites (Books, Charity, Magazine and Music) as well as doing my day job, I have even less time than I did in 2012. I have sorted out my email account so that I can read the posts written by my friends, but I am honestly so sorry if I’ve posted recently and haven’t been over to read your blog. If I win the lottery and can leave my day job, I’ll have time to read everyone’s blog. Until then, I have to be selective with my time as trying to please everyone has been making me ill. I figured it was better to focus on my health, which means scaling back on how many people’s blog posts I can follow.

I just wanted to put this out there so people don’t think I am ignoring them by choice, I’m so sorry x

Manic Panic Hair Dye

I have dyed my hair a few times in the past with Manic Panic dye, I even filmed the last one and popped it on YouTube (video at the bottom).

I really really want to dye my hair again so I have been looking at the options on the Manic Panic website. I’m going on a special day out with Michelle in June so I’m going to dye my hair the weekend before.

Since I last checked out their website, they have added loads of new colours so I’m really stuck for choice. I have managed to narrow it down though ๐Ÿ™‚

I think out of all of them, I’m most taken by Hot Hot Pink but Michelle prefers Purple Haze, but I guess all will be revealed in June! I’m so excited!

(if you click on the image, it will take you straight to the webpage for that colour if you wanted to find out more information)

Velvet Violet
Plum Passion
Deep Purple Dream
Purple Haze
Fuschia Shock
Vampireยฎ Red
Infraโ„ข Red
Cleo Roseโ„ข
Hot Hotโ„ข Pink

I need an overhaul!

One of the truly “great” things about depression I’ve found is, you really don’t care about your appearance. I have gone to work many a time looking like my clothes were selected at random, in the dark, during some kind of game show where I was against the clock. As long as I was dressed, I didn’t care. The same thing went for my hair. Most days I would brush it and pop it into a ponytail without any thought. I’d go for a week without washing it as the thought alone of going in the shower was too tiring, let alone bothering to actually go in.

I’m 38 now. This November, I’ll be 39. NEXT November, I’ll be 40. I have no sense of who I am fashion wise, as I have spent most of my life with depression and it was all I could do to survive whatever crisis I was dealing with, let alone think, “ooh this skirt is cute, what shoes should I wear?” Nope, whichever shoes were nearest were it, for me.

Even now, as I write this blog post, I like the idea of discovering my “inner Jenny” and what “inner Jenny likes”. Though the idea is starting to float away from me now, like early morning fog, and it will probably be consigned to the “good ideas for when I have the capacity” drawer, like pretty much every idea I have.

I do want to try though. You may find I blog/Instagram some “OOTD” or “Outfit Of The Day” posts in the future. I hope I do. This means that it was an exceptional day, where, first thing in the morning (weirdly, the time when I’m at my best), I managed to put an outfit together constructively.

I just watched Victoria Beckham on James Corden’s The Late Late Show, wearing exceptionally high high heels. I won’t be wearing high heels, and knowing that at least is helpful; not only do I need to discover what I do want to wear, I also need to discover what I don’t want to wear.

I do need to dye my hair, but I am petrified of becoming one of those women who has an allergic reaction to the dye and whose face blows up like a pufferfish. I do like the dye from Manic Panic though as it’s Para-phenylenediamine (PPD) free, ammonia free and peroxide free, and I think it’s the PPD that worries me the most about dyeing my hair. Watch this space on that, I guess!

Sorry that there have been a few mentions to my depression recently, I know people a lot of the time don’t want to hear someone’s got depression, as “we all have problems”. Yes, I know we all have problems, but expecting people to repress their depression to make you feel better and less awkward is unreasonable.

I’m hoping that by writing all of this down that I’ll somehow inspire myself to actually muster up the brain energy to do this. I hope so!

April 2017 film releases that I want to see

I’ve been checking out up and coming films, and there are quite a few that I fancy watching ๐Ÿ™‚

Mad To Be Normal
UK release date: 6th April 2017

Synopsis: Mad To Be Normal tells the story of world-renowned Scottish psychiatrist RD Laing and his unique community at Kingsley Hall, East London, during the 1960’s. (via IMDb)
Stars: David Tennant, Elisabeth Moss, Michael Gambon

Table 19
UK release date: 7th April 2017

Synopsis: Eloise, having been relieved of maid of honor duties after being unceremoniously dumped by the best man via text, decides to attend the wedding anyway, only to find herself seated with five fellow unwanted guests at the dreaded Table 19. (via IMDb)
Stars: Anna Kendrick, Lisa Kudrow, Craig Robinson

Unforgettable
UK release date: 21st April 2017

Synopsis: A woman sets out to make life hell for her ex-husband’s new wife. (via IMDb)
Stars: Rosario Dawson, Katherine Heigl, Whitney Cummings

Their Finest
UK release date: 21st April 2017

Synopsis: A British film crew attempts to boost morale during World War II by making a propaganda film after the Blitzkrieg. (via IMDb)
Stars: Gemma Arterton, Sam Claflin, Bill Nighy

Handsome Devil
UK release date: 28th April 2017

Synopsis: Ned and Conor are forced to share a bedroom at their boarding school. The loner and the star athlete at this rugby-mad school form an unlikely friendship until it’s tested by the authorities. (via IMDb)
Stars: Fionn O’Shea, Nicholas Galitzine, Andrew Scott