It seems like I may have found my style!

I think I have finally realised that my style is “tomboy”! I am currently researching this, and I will update soon!

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Do you like to discover new music?

One of my side projects is Merryn Music where I interview unsigned UK and Ireland music artists every Monday for a feature I creatively called “Independent Music Monday”.

One of the other parts to Merryn Music is the Spotify account. Since Merryn Magazine launched in April 2016, I have been collating ‘new music’ playlists on the Spotify account. These are updated each week and I also have a playlist where I compile the 20 best songs of the week. These playlists feature UK and Ireland artists only.

There are now 300 songs (18 hours 30 minutes of music) on the February playlist:

There are over 300 songs on the March playlist:

I have added a new batch of songs to the Top 20 playlist, so if you fancy a listen, here’s the playlist! 🙂 (NB: I can’t get Naropa’s song off the playlist! I think it’s because it was removed from Spotify, my playlist starts with Brave Giant).

Whose blog is it anyway?

When I first starting blogging back in 2012, I never thought I’d get any followers. Who’d be interested in my ramblings? I now have followers, and I am so grateful for every one of you. To be honest though, for a long time, I found myself not being able to blog on here because I felt so guilty that I didn’t have the time to read the posts of everyone who follows me. So I figured, if I don’t blog, then I won’t have to upset the people who would have known I’d been online but hadn’t read their posts. It probably doesn’t make any sense, but I didn’t want to offend anyone.

Now that I run the Merryn family of websites (Books, Charity, Magazine and Music) as well as doing my day job, I have even less time than I did in 2012. I have sorted out my email account so that I can read the posts written by my friends, but I am honestly so sorry if I’ve posted recently and haven’t been over to read your blog. If I win the lottery and can leave my day job, I’ll have time to read everyone’s blog. Until then, I have to be selective with my time as trying to please everyone has been making me ill. I figured it was better to focus on my health, which means scaling back on how many people’s blog posts I can follow.

I just wanted to put this out there so people don’t think I am ignoring them by choice, I’m so sorry x

Manic Panic Hair Dye

I have dyed my hair a few times in the past with Manic Panic dye, I even filmed the last one and popped it on YouTube (video at the bottom).

I really really want to dye my hair again so I have been looking at the options on the Manic Panic website. I’m going on a special day out with Michelle in June so I’m going to dye my hair the weekend before.

Since I last checked out their website, they have added loads of new colours so I’m really stuck for choice. I have managed to narrow it down though 🙂

I think out of all of them, I’m most taken by Hot Hot Pink but Michelle prefers Purple Haze, but I guess all will be revealed in June! I’m so excited!

(if you click on the image, it will take you straight to the webpage for that colour if you wanted to find out more information)

Velvet Violet
Plum Passion
Deep Purple Dream
Purple Haze
Fuschia Shock
Vampire® Red
Infra™ Red
Cleo Rose™
Hot Hot™ Pink

I need an overhaul!

One of the truly “great” things about depression I’ve found is, you really don’t care about your appearance. I have gone to work many a time looking like my clothes were selected at random, in the dark, during some kind of game show where I was against the clock. As long as I was dressed, I didn’t care. The same thing went for my hair. Most days I would brush it and pop it into a ponytail without any thought. I’d go for a week without washing it as the thought alone of going in the shower was too tiring, let alone bothering to actually go in.

I’m 38 now. This November, I’ll be 39. NEXT November, I’ll be 40. I have no sense of who I am fashion wise, as I have spent most of my life with depression and it was all I could do to survive whatever crisis I was dealing with, let alone think, “ooh this skirt is cute, what shoes should I wear?” Nope, whichever shoes were nearest were it, for me.

Even now, as I write this blog post, I like the idea of discovering my “inner Jenny” and what “inner Jenny likes”. Though the idea is starting to float away from me now, like early morning fog, and it will probably be consigned to the “good ideas for when I have the capacity” drawer, like pretty much every idea I have.

I do want to try though. You may find I blog/Instagram some “OOTD” or “Outfit Of The Day” posts in the future. I hope I do. This means that it was an exceptional day, where, first thing in the morning (weirdly, the time when I’m at my best), I managed to put an outfit together constructively.

I just watched Victoria Beckham on James Corden’s The Late Late Show, wearing exceptionally high high heels. I won’t be wearing high heels, and knowing that at least is helpful; not only do I need to discover what I do want to wear, I also need to discover what I don’t want to wear.

I do need to dye my hair, but I am petrified of becoming one of those women who has an allergic reaction to the dye and whose face blows up like a pufferfish. I do like the dye from Manic Panic though as it’s Para-phenylenediamine (PPD) free, ammonia free and peroxide free, and I think it’s the PPD that worries me the most about dyeing my hair. Watch this space on that, I guess!

Sorry that there have been a few mentions to my depression recently, I know people a lot of the time don’t want to hear someone’s got depression, as “we all have problems”. Yes, I know we all have problems, but expecting people to repress their depression to make you feel better and less awkward is unreasonable.

I’m hoping that by writing all of this down that I’ll somehow inspire myself to actually muster up the brain energy to do this. I hope so!

April 2017 film releases that I want to see

I’ve been checking out up and coming films, and there are quite a few that I fancy watching 🙂

Mad To Be Normal
UK release date: 6th April 2017

Synopsis: Mad To Be Normal tells the story of world-renowned Scottish psychiatrist RD Laing and his unique community at Kingsley Hall, East London, during the 1960’s. (via IMDb)
Stars: David Tennant, Elisabeth Moss, Michael Gambon

Table 19
UK release date: 7th April 2017

Synopsis: Eloise, having been relieved of maid of honor duties after being unceremoniously dumped by the best man via text, decides to attend the wedding anyway, only to find herself seated with five fellow unwanted guests at the dreaded Table 19. (via IMDb)
Stars: Anna Kendrick, Lisa Kudrow, Craig Robinson

Unforgettable
UK release date: 21st April 2017

Synopsis: A woman sets out to make life hell for her ex-husband’s new wife. (via IMDb)
Stars: Rosario Dawson, Katherine Heigl, Whitney Cummings

Their Finest
UK release date: 21st April 2017

Synopsis: A British film crew attempts to boost morale during World War II by making a propaganda film after the Blitzkrieg. (via IMDb)
Stars: Gemma Arterton, Sam Claflin, Bill Nighy

Handsome Devil
UK release date: 28th April 2017

Synopsis: Ned and Conor are forced to share a bedroom at their boarding school. The loner and the star athlete at this rugby-mad school form an unlikely friendship until it’s tested by the authorities. (via IMDb)
Stars: Fionn O’Shea, Nicholas Galitzine, Andrew Scott

 

Take That on Carpool Karaoke for Comic Relief

I didn’t get the chance to watch Comic Relief live last night, but I’ve just watched the video of Take That with James Corden for Carpool Karaoke.

I was 12 years old when Take That started and I was a fan since the start. I even got to be front row at one of their concerts when I was 15. I was devastated when they split up, but I was so pleased when they reformed and came back as a ‘man band’! They’re such talented singers and I’m so pleased they’re still performing.

Hearing them singing the older songs brought back happy memories of my teenage years. I’m so jealous of James and everyone who got to meet them in this video, it’s just brilliant!

Hello spring!

Well, winter 2016/2017 was a poop season for me, for many reasons. Dull and boring and rubbish reasons I won’t go into, but to say that spring is only 6 days old, I am loving it so far!

I spent most of the evening today watching the live feed for the Ultra Music Festival in Miami. This was mainly because lovely Louis Tomlinson (for those that may be new to following me or may have forgotten – I am a HUGE One Direction fan) was performing his single Just Hold On with DJ Steve Aoki during Steve’s set. I started watching the live feed a few hours before, mainly out of paranoia that it wouldn’t work for me, and really loved watching everyone’s sets. Louis was amazing, as always, but after Steve was Cypress Hill, who I LOVED as a teenager. I had their album Black Sunday and I was so excited once they did Insane In The Brain.

It was all go tonight as not only was it announced tonight that Cheryl and Liam’s baby (again, One Direction) had been born on Wednesday, Harry Styles (of One Direction, no less) dropped an advert during Saturday Night Takeaway that his new single is out 7th April. It’s been quite the day!

My depression was so bad before spring started, and whether it’s the warmer weather and daffodils everywhere, or just timing, I’m feeling much happier about everything.

Oh, I nearly forgot, it’s 9 months today until Christmas Day! Yay!

January 2017 film releases that I want to see

I’ve been checking out up and coming films for January 2017, and there are quite a few that I fancy watching 🙂

A Monster Calls
UK release date: 1st January

Synopsis: A boy seeks the help of a tree monster to cope with his single mom’s terminal illness. (via IMDb)
Stars: Lewis MacDougall, Sigourney Weaver, Felicity Jones, Toby Kebbell, Liam Neeson

Manchester by the Sea
UK release date: 13th January
Synopsis: An uncle is asked to take care of his teenage nephew after the boy’s father dies. (via IMDb)
Stars: Casey Affleck, Michelle Williams, Kyle Chandler

La La Land
UK release date: 13th January
Synopsis: A jazz pianist falls for an aspiring actress in Los Angeles. (via IMDb)
Stars: Ryan Gosling, Emma Stone, Rosemarie DeWitt

Sing
UK release date: 27th January
Synopsis: A koala named Buster Moon has one final chance to restore his theater to its former glory by producing the world’s greatest singing competition. (via IMDb)
Stars: Matthew McConaughey, Reese Witherspoon, Seth MacFarlane,  Scarlett Johansson, John C. Reilly, Taron Egerton, Tori Kelly, Jennifer Saunders, Jennifer Hudson

Further Ed
UK release date: 30th January
Synopsis: A young, vibrant, character driven comedy set against the backdrop of a British University. Two students decide to make their own unique brand of L.S.D to pay of their tuition fees, and ultimately try and stay in school. (via IMDb)
Stars: George Webster, David Fricker, Zoe Croft

 

The weight race: the final verdict

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In January of this year, me and Michelle decided to go vegan for lots of different reasons, but for me being lactose intolerant was one of the main reasons.

One of the happy outcomes of this lifestyle change was; the weight started coming off me really easily. I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, so losing weight isn’t exactly easy but I have to say that being vegan is really suiting my body. As well as going vegan, we also dropped refined sugar, which has really helped too.

I just calculated that this year I have lost a whopping 2st 3lbs, which I am really happy with! This is the lowest I have weighed in the 8 years that Michelle and I have been together, and therefore the lowest weight I’ve been in my 30s! I’m excited to see how much I will lose in 2017, as we will be starting back in the gym in January after a bout of ill health stopped us going in.

Bring on 2017! 🙂